Little Gnome

Thursday, July 9, 2009

The Moment.

Jana sent me this lovely article about a woman coming to terms with her mother's Alzheimer's through her study of yoga.

My brother says that he does not remember my mother before she was sick and in some ways this makes it easier for him to accept the current iteration of his mother. I tend to remember her as more perfect than she probably was, only heightening the contrast.

My father carries in his wallet a picture of my mother at age 22. I suppose he is choosing that moment instead.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Attempt #1

Today I will attempt to bring the little gnome and my mother to my doctor's appointment. I have looked for alternate solutions and have come up with none save hiring a complete stranger for the hour. Dread might be the word that comes to mind.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Make Me Better.

The little gnome puked in the car ride from the airport to our San Francisco sublet. He was kind enough to wait until we had gotten off of the plane and away from the airport. I thought it was just a one-off, like the only other time that he has puked (at NayNay's ByeBye SF party last year in Dolores Park). So we cleaned him up and settled into our apartment and then met Leila and Juniper and Clementine for the first of what we hope will be many July adventures.

Our place is next to theirs and if they would just forget to close the blinds we could see into Leila & Gavin's bedroom from our back porch. Anyway, we had just loaded Juniper and Soren into a double stroller when he puked again--all over his second set of clothes and the orange stroller muff. And still I did not clue in that this was an actual illness. We cleaned him off again, changed his clothes and proceeded to the park where he played with his usual enthusiasm. Except that when we got home, he puked again, and then in the middle of the night and then in the morning.

On the first day he seemed to rally after every round, but by the second the dehydration and exhaustion had caught up to him and we spent the entire day in our new apartment reading stories, watching videos and cuddling. To be honest, he was not really that interested in anything but the cuddling. A call to the advice nurse suggested only clear liquids until the vomiting stopped (it did, only to be replaced by diarrhea) and then a diet of toast, apples, bananas and rice. So far we have only made it as far as the banana. She also said that he can "nurse as much as he wants" and that this would help him recover faster. I will say that my person was not quite prepared for the onslaught. Today (day two and a half) he looked so feverish and sad much of the time and occasionally he would crawl into my lap and say "Mama, make me better."

We are doing what we can little guy.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

My Heart Belongs...

We made it back to San Francisco and it is great to be here. Our apartment is nicer than we had expected, with a lovely deck. The little gnome has already played with half of the amazing number of toys next door at Juniper's house and fed a gentle and willing Clem pieces of pita. He has also been throwing up since somewhere near the Ocean Avenue exit on our way back from the airport, but he seems to bounce back in between bouts. At least that did not begin until after we had gotten off of the flight with my mother, who is quite confused by all of the changes, Calliope, who acted as her service dog and got to ride on her lap, the little gnome. As I type this the little gnome has raided the refrigerator of strawberries, so we shall see if his stomach is doing better than it was at 3am. He has already tried to get his hoes on several times in order to drive to the storage unit to pick up his little red piano. I would say, even with the stomach bug, he is thrilled to be back. As are we.

One Year Ago...


Preparations for canoeing.
Originally uploaded by jmss.

Preparations for canoeing.

Monday, June 29, 2009

I have not written much here recently because we have been taking care of my mother and I have been feeling to overwhelmed to write. I also have not figured out a respectful way to write about the nutty, mundane events that Alzheimer's has brought into our lives. We head to San Francisco tomorrow morning and the change of scene might be just what we need.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Little shopper.

Soren's toy shopping cart contains:

an Ernie doll
a Popi book
a Petit Ours Brun book
a bell rattle
Sarah Pomeroy's Goddesses, Wives, Whores, and Slaves


At least the last is low on illustrations.